remembering God’s faithfulness today
Two years ago this morning, I remember being in a really, really low place emotionally and spiritually. For years we had been asking God for a child without an answer, or at least not a desirable one. Whether or not God even heard my prayers at this point seemed to be the recurring doubt.
That morning, I was beginning to believe that God was subjecting Joe and I to a life of continual pain, no respite, just deep, constant, take-your-breath-away, pain. And up until that point that had been our experience, month after month after month after month.
What I didn’t know that morning, while in the middle of pouring out my complaints and tears before the Lord, was that my child’s heart was already beating inside of me.
Later that evening, I was cleaning our bathroom and found an almost empty box of pregnancy tests. I honestly don’t know what compelled me to take one- I knew I wasn’t pregnant. Perhaps after three years it just became some sort of habit? You know, one of those must-pee-on-a-stick-every-time-I-see-a-toilet kind of habits.
Words fail when I try to describe the whirlwind of emotions that accompanied the two pink lines. However, in all the disbelief and shock, it was as if the Lord was saying, I’ve heard you.
I’ve never shared the details behind our almost three-year struggle with infertility, but maybe one day I will. Most of our friends and family know what we’ve walked through, but there’s a lot of you that don’t. If our story could be of some encouragement to your faith, especially if you are facing something similar, then I’d resolve to overcome my hesitancy in getting too up-close and personal on these here internets.
So, why the main reason for this post? Well, there are two:
1. Two years ago today, we learned that God had given us a child. We want to remember this day and celebrate this day and thank God for displaying his power and grace in our lives through giving us Sam. In many ways, this day signifies a shift that took place in our faith- a deepening of trust that has remained these past two years. We hope you will praise the Lord with us today for answering our prayers.
2. We want more children.
We don’t know what the Lord has planned for our family, but our deep desire is for more children. And while I’m at it, we would love more children soon! There, I said it.
Joe and I are confident that Sam is here today not solely because of our prayers, but because we had a small army praying with us. And when God answered those prayers, the rejoicing was that much greater because so many had interceded on our behalf. It was a beautiful thing to share with the body of Christ.
So here we are. Two years later and we’re asking God for more mercy and more power to overcome any medical obstacles and bless us with more children. We are both acutely aware of how deep our need for grace and prayer runs if God is to add to the number of our family. And while blogging is not the most comfortable platform to ask for such things, it most definitely is the easiest way to make our need for prayer known.
So, we humbly ask, would you please pray with us for another child?